Dedicated to Ng Mei Chyi

Hahaha!! After many long lazy ness of not updating my blog, i have been requested to dedicate a post for my dearest kiut friend.. hahaha, Well here it is!

She is 18 going to be 17 going to be 18 soon, with a lil average short height! haha... Acts funny at times with her crazzzy krazzy gesture. Can be cute sometime and funny at others but still always in an eternal emo state. Likes sticky crazy for koi fall madly in love with her cloths (9 or 10 cloths crumple together) her mao mao she calls it. Hahaha.

Lives in SG but she doesn't like singaporeans... hahaha how ironic is that! Goes to westwood with her woody friends, and enjoys her daily stroll to JP for breakfast lunch and dinner! xD

Together with her is her elder sister, Also as same with her crazzy crazzy all year long.. always have stories to tell and when she does it.. she's always hyper~ xD

Well.......... i guess i wont write much about it cause this is too public and if i go in more details you guy might wanna rob them! soo.... hahaha Farewell~

Hello~

Hello to the people who does follow this lame blog~
It's time for me to update on smthWeee.... You guys know what this is? IT'S STICKY!!! Yummy~ Sweet devilish candy!

Yes, this is a candy... Wakakak, Thx to Wenqi and Meichyi that always grabs some for me from SG. (And they are still in ma fridge)

Really not in any mood to blog for the past few days? weeks? month? I'm not quite sure why , Maybe i'm just too tired to even write it down Even though much has happen.

Think about this, What really is the truth in life? What does anything got to do with everything?

If you can't even grab the meaning of it all, wouldn't you be just like everyone else being the same damn thing, doing the same damn shit?

What about lurve? Why do we hunger and desire for them? Is it really that much to be in a relationship? For the past few days, My FB has been flooded with Relationship statuses Of either breaking up's or new relationships formed. Do we really lust for all this?

Trust, is what that matters in the end. Do we really trust the person next to us? around us? Far from us? Do we really put out faith in them wholeheartedly? and not being a Hypocrite in what we say and what we do. Action certainly speaks louder than words, But not always action can go trough to a person without words. Sometimes a simple "I LOVE YOU' can really mean a lot.

DO NOT!! I REPEAT DO NOT!! Exploit the use of the word "I LOVE YOU" , It will only ruin your relationship. It will have no meaning when you truly meant it. Because it became a norm to you and your partner. Make that word special and meaningful again, Keep that to your dearest and you will succeed in your relationship.

Well i guess thats for now. See ya in the near Future~ xP

Breathless

Had this awesome feeling last night when i was asleep. I practically wasn't breathing!
Every time i breath it's like my body and soul got separated and traveled back and forth in time. Every time i wake up i'm not where i was.

It may sound like a dream to you but it was as real as life to me. It was difficult to breath and at the same time exciting. the pressure and impulse of out of body experience is to an extend i am not me when i wake up.. I see myself somewhere but i am not in my body..
Hahaha..

Well.. nothing much to talk about it.. because the rest was a blurr.. =]
All i rmb was as i returned to my seat, my alarm woke me up.. (there was more to come but that stupid alarm was too ALARMING)

Memories~

Walking down the road.... i ponder... how i used to be so anxious on seeing toys... how fun it was.

Went to Tropicana City mall and practically walked the whole mall. Went into toy R us and saw this beautiful bulldozer.. hahaha
It reminded me of how i had one just like that when i was little... I always like that bulldozer, how strong and mighty it was. Haha... I know.. Hey that was back then when i was just a boy.

Walk pass alot of shops, games , arcade, cinema, cloths, bookstores and nothing seem to interest me anymore... I wonder why? Maybe i have went pass that stage? But i do still adore the looks of the children when they eagerly wanting their parents to buy that specific toy.. Too bad the parents can only buy 1.

It was just a walking down memory lane felt like.. =]

Independence Day!!

It is the time of the year again.. Where we remember our founding fathers of the Independence Day for Malaysia!

Where the British hand over their ruling rights to the Malaysian Government.

Was it the right decision to do so? If we could turn back time , would we choose to be ruled by the British?

However, If it wasn't for the group that went to London for this, we wouldn't have all this fun , crucial and entertaining racism , religion and political issues to entertain the people of Malaysia!

What did we do for our country except see it burn to the ground?

Do the citizens of Malaysia feel patriotic to their country?

Do we really belong here?

Been hearing a lot of people migrating out to other country. Fleeing from their birthrights and not standing their ground giving the minorities to rule over the majorities. God did put us here for a reason, why are we running away?

Stand your ground and defend your rights!

A change can only start from you! Do not depend on others to change what should be done, but you yourself should be the one to start the change.

2020 our long forgotten "wawasan" was suppose to create a country of fairness and equality!

But we still fail to do so.. we have limited time left and yet more crucial issues arise.

If there was a way to do so, i would hope to kill off the early generations that had such worthless mindset, and let the new generations that wants freedom, fairness and equality to be the ruler of this country.

Hear the cries of the people, Hear the words of the people, For without the people the country is pointless!

Time

What is wrong.... Everything just suddenly cram up in here.. what happen to the pause button?

Everything and everyone just seem to zoom pass me in a blink of an eye. What happen to Stop & Stare?

Is life really that fast and on going?

When we were kids, back then we dint have to worry bout a thing.

Come to think of it, we didn't need to worry bout anything, Everything is provided.

But as life grew into us, we are bind towards many things.

Future, money, even friends.

Oh how i would give up everything i have just to be back when i was a child...

Understanding

There are no right or wrong's in a relationship.

What there is, are only ' I understand ' or ' I don't understand'

Really there is nothing much to it..

Couples fite because they do not really understand one another.

They see the partners down fault as a problem that is ruining their relationship.

What actually a person should do is, don't judge ur partners.

They are what they are. You have to accept them for who they are.

They might change for u but that doesn't mean the problems gone.

Every now and then problems such as these will end up screwing another problem.

'Why?' a common questions which stir up the argument.

But in fact there is no problem.. It is either you understand them or not.

Why don't they understand one another?

Having the chance to talk it out but both parties doesn't want to.

Having the chance to sort it all out but both parties are not into it.

Because of this, couples argue head till toe.

There are no right or wrong's in a relationship, because both parties are at fault.

"He looks at another girl" "She msges another guy"

WTF? is that all it takes to break your heart?

Why is it so difficult?

Is it because of your previous lovers hurt you that way, that you are afraid that this partner might screw u the same way they did?

An EX' has a meaning to it, they are the past that we should learn from and move on.

Bad Ex's are those we should never keep in mind. They will only ruin your relationship.

Be positive. Love one another, Care for one another, Bare in mind that human's do make mistake but that doesn't give us the right to judge one another.

Even after a heartfelt broke up or a cursed relationship, we should always learn one another, Understand one another , and give chances.

This is not a game, it is LIFE.

Bad break-ups tend to happen much in life. SO WHAT?

Does it stop you from growing? Does it stop you from becoming more mature?

If we keep hold on to the grudges of our EX's , we will in the end miss out alot in life.

So go out there, just have fun knowing one another. There are plenty of room to grow with one another.

[This post is not meant to anyone... I just woke up at 4.43 and started writing without thinking of anybody.. hahaha]

Oops...

Well this are the photos which is suppose to be with the last post.. XD have fun..




Anyone wanna go to COCKFOSTERS? XD





Yes.. it is what it say's on the wall

CHEEEEEESEEE!!!




Non alcoholic alcohol drink..

Holiday

Finally back home!

2 weeks of oversea wind is not a bad idea once in a while.

But the weather... Is so bloody random!

Summer was suppose to be warm or should i say HOT! But it's freaking 16 degree in Liverpool!! WTH is wrong with that?!

Spend most of my days in Liverpool and did some travelling to Manchester and London..

Did not miss the chance to go to Holland too... sin city would be the correct term for Amsterdam.. Everything there is practically illegal in other countries..

This will be a short update for now.. haha Too tired.. (>.<)

Melacca~

What a relaxing day at Melacca.

Spent most of the time at Hilton Hotel Executive lounge floor =D

Well , it's paid for .. so might as well just fully utilize it. hahaha

Free flow of food and beverages of all kinds.. woot..

Yes.. liquor, beer, wine are no exception..

Hehehe.. drank till full and went back to da room.

When my dad reached.. we continued drinking at the bar while watching Italy got pounded by Slovakia (3-2)

Went back the next morning. And tomorrow will be heading to penang for my cousin sis's wedding... Congratulations Mei Ling Jie Jie!!!

Nice beer~

Woot!!
Hahaha... this is not the first cup..

Wee..~

Hahaha... Went out with 2 amazing sisters.. They are just so funny together..
Having close relationship among sisters is a good thing.. =P
They are soo good to even blj me for movies...=D
hehehe..
Felt so bad though.. =.= pa ni.. she paid all...
Well now both of them will be in sg and i'll be stuck in malaysia.. haha
It'll be nice if we meet again.. =D
Thx for everything..

Life after...Huh?

Well.. this is it..
What are we..
How have we become..
Life as it is will be more excitement?

Crazy as it seems..
We are all there is to it!


Relationships..
What are they?
They are just a stepping stone in life for us..
They help build us , mold us, and guide us to the right directions.(with help of course)

Work..
Is it important to us?
I say it is not..
But we still need them to survive in this world..
Because work provide money and money is an essential medium in our life.

Whats next?
Why do we have to stress on what is next for us?
Can't we just stay put for a moment and just relax?
It's a busy world out there..
So we must enjoy as much as possible for when working life starts...
There isn't much fun anymore...


Live Life to the Fullest..=D

Lawl..

Hahaha...
Finally say the ble ble face... lul..
Hyper as always she is..

Went sunway.. do nothing.. stone stone.. then change place to mid valley..
At Mv.. last minute go buy tix.. damn.. all sold out.. aa!!!
So we could only get Sg movie..
Dun worry.. luckily it was not some lameass movie.. hahaha
Happy go lucky was the title... >.<

Argh. .no time for blogging oso.. cause dunno wan write what oso ..
Just make do with what we can..




God is Good All The Time...
And All The Time..
God Is Good!

A Level Pawned!!!

WEEEE!!!!!
FINALLY!!!!!
FINISHED!!!!!!
WOOOTTTT!!!!!

Hahahaha.. finally graduated from A level.. Whats next? More drastic measures should be taken..

Think of the future.. What has passed let it pass.. Just look forward and keep moving FORWARD!!

Wee.. hahaha.. Nothing can express how happy!!! AND HOW FUCKING BORED I AM RIGHT NOW...
=.=
Haha.. since no more studying.. Everything seem to just blued....
College mates are all going far far away..
saying gudbyes just seem like another normal greeting.
Goodbye is the next Hello~

What's next? Coming soon.. My cousin sis will be getting married and i am invited to go.. Will be driving back to penang... Can't wait for the Ah hui's curry mee... Wee... PORK BLOOD.. SOTONG...

K lah.. back to stoning.. XD

Movie B4 Exam =^.^=

Prince of Persia!!!!!!

Lawl.. Manage to have a last minute Movie with me beloved fren whom so kindly 'belanja' me.. hahaha
Movie was 'not bad' had nice climax.. but the ending was a lil set back..
But who cares!! Woot.. Exam and im still out watching movies!!! Omg!!!!

Kk.. now back to Econ text...

Exam Exam Exam~~

OMG!!! it's the time of the year where we kick back relax and fail our papers?

OMG no way!!! Study study study!!!
It's the finals.. dun play a fool mate~
>.<


Argh!! what have i been doing these pass few months... OMG la.. now the day has come and am i prepared? (damn only partially)

Argh!!! Help me!!!
Felling down stress and heart ache..
STREEESSSSSSSSS

Ish... Keeping this short cause need to go back to facing notes... X3
See ya'll real soon

I wanna love you forever.

You set my soul at ease
Chased darkness out of view
Left your desperate spell on me
Say you feel it too I know you do
I've got so much more to give
This can't die, I yearn to live
Pour yourself all over me
And I'll cherish every drop here on my knees

Chorus:
I wanna love you forever
And this is all I'm asking of you
10,000 lifetimes together
Is that so much for you to do
Cuz from the moment that I saw your face
and felt the fire of your sweet embrace
I swear I knew
I wanna love you forever

Verse:
My mind fails to understand
What my heart tells me to do
And I'd give up all I have just to be with you
And that would do
I've always been taught to win
And I never thought I'd fail
Be at the mercy of a man,I've never been
Now I only want to be right where you are

Chorus

Bridge:
In my life I've learned that heaven never waits
Let's take this now before it's gone
like yesterday
Cuz when I'm with you there's nowhere else
That I would ever wanna be no
I'm breathing for the next second I can feel you
Loving me..I'm gonna Love

Chorus

Hi y'all

Sorry for not being active much with blogging. There past few months has been a BOMB. =]
Been just posting up songs i felt accurately showing my feeling.. haha
Time has pass but the thought is just to hard to bear.

Will find more things to occupy my mind..
C ya!

Will update more in da phuture~

Best i ever had... ♥

So you sailed away
Into a grey sky morning
Now I'm here to stay
Love can be so boring

Nothing's quite the same now
I just say your name now

Chorus
But it's not so bad
You're only the best I ever had
You don't want me back
You're just the best I ever had

So you stole my world
Now I'm just a phony
Remembering the girl
Leaves me down and lonely

Send it in a letter
Make yourself feel better

Chorus
But it's not so bad
You're only the best I ever had
You don't need me back
You're just the best I ever had

And it may take some time to
Patch me up inside
But I can't take it so i
Run away and hide
And I may find in time that
You were always right
You're always right

So you sailed away
Into a grey sky morning
Now I'm here to stay
Love can be so boring

What was it you wanted
Could it be I'm haunted

Chorus
But it's not so bad
You're only the best I ever had
I don't want you back
You're just the best I ever had
The best I ever had
The best I ever

Rythm of the Falling Rain....

Listen to the rythm of the falling rain
Telling me just what a fool I've been
I wish that if you go and let me cry in vain
And let me be alone again

The only girl I care about has gone away
Looking for a brand-new start
But little does she know that when she left that day
Along with her she took my heart

Rain please tell me not as that seem fair
For her to steal my heart away when she don't care
I can't love another when my heart's somewhere far away

The only girl I care about has gone away
Looking for a brand-new start
But little does she know that when she left that day
Along with her she took my heart

Rain won't you tell her that I love her so
Please as the sun has set her heart aglow
Rain in her heart and let the love we knew start to grow

Listen to the rythm of the falling rain
Telling me just what a fool I've been
I wish that if you go and let me and cry in vain
And let me be alone again

Oh, listen to the falling rain
Pitter Patter Pitter Patter ohhhh

Hahaha!!!! Sohai!!!

Haha.. One of the few times i camwhore.. >.<
<3 this...

The heart

I don't know how to start. Maybe i'll go with i wish i did not have anymore feeling. No feel, No pain. It's just been 1 month 11 days 3 hours 52 minutes and it still hurts.
Her final blow was about 1 day 8 hours 58 minutes. I say the post and i was crucified.
My heart couldn't stop hurting.

Even though i know she's happy, but i just couldn't help it. I wished for god to just take me away from here. Back to heaven, back to where i was suppose to be.
So that my heart would not hurt no more. So that this pain will go away.

It was fast... It came about just 3 hours and 'BAAM!' the relationship changed.
She decided quick and fast. I just hope that he will treat her quadruple centuries better than what i ever had.

I couldn't give her what she wanted most. So i hope this guy could.


"MOVE ON" , 2 words from a fren.
I wanted to. But my heart is stronger than the mind.
I don't have much friends to seek when it comes to personal problems.
I'm not like you where you will have tons of guys comforting you when your down.
I'm not the strong to easily let go of the things i really love it deeply.
Creating an illusion is what i do best.
Finding things to do whenever i have nothing to do. Always keep my mind occupied.
But when ever i am done, my mind will start to think again.. thinking bout those..
And the heart will cry out again..

Every night for the pass few days, having deeply sad dreams.
Couldn't help it but to wake up in tear's.
But when i woke up, the tears just stopped.
The heart want's to cry but the mind doesn't.


"Predict"
The day i met you , i had a feeling that you would understand me.
That you could see how i was, love me for who i am and not what i am.
See through me and trust me.
I was wrong. I was never suppose to predict these feelings.
I was never suppose to think this way.
Trust can never be easily gain in the real world.
And i will never have such opportunity to gain her trust.

I always tend to treat girls how they should be treated but i can never treat a girlfriend how they should.
I don't know why i couldn't take care of their feelings.
Comfort them, give them assurance, Protect them.


"I'm a Kid"
I have a kid-like thinking. She said.
But have you forgotten the ways of a child's thinking?
They are special. Unpredictable and their feelings are pure.
For what purpose that adults create a world that maturity is the way?
We decide what the world is.
We decide on the future of the world.
& We are the future of the world.



"I will never learn"
I learn something from that statement.
I learn that i could never agree on anything i don;t want to unless proven otherwise.
I learn that from the very beginning i was just a passer-by in your life.
I learn that even though i tried to make you believe, you will never. Because your just as same hard headed as me.



"I intended to"
Does that mean from the beginning of it, you intended to just fool around with me to?
I'm loosing my mind.
I'm loosing my focus.
What happen?
What happened to us?

Just because it started with it and it became her and it became me.
I am and always will be the problem. No matter how you look at it.

The past The present The future

I miss the past..
I hate the present..
I am afraid of the future...

The past makes us strong..
The present makes us annoyed...
The future makes us wonder...

What has the past given you?
What is the present giving you?
What will the future give you?

I miss those times..
I miss those hours..
I miss those seconds...

Is what in the past really that good?
Is what in the present really that suck?
Is what in the future really that scary?

Where have my past went?
Where will my present take me?
Where will my future come..

Missing those sweet times when you were shy..
Missing those times when you were caring..
Missing those hours we spent together..

Is this illusion?
Will it come again?
Will i wake up?

The past is smth we leave behind..
The present is smth we are living..
The future is smth we should be looking forward to..


t(-.-t) FML << How to FYL?

John Hiatt - Have A Little Faith

When the road gets dark
And you can no longer see
Just let my love throw a spark, baby
Have a little faith in me

When the tears you cry
Are all you can believe
Just give these loving arms a try, baby
Have a little faith in me

Have a little faith in me
Have a little faith in me
Have a little faith in me
Have a little faith in me

When your secret heart
Cannot speak so *easily*
Come here darlin'
From a whisper start
To have a little faith in me

When your back's against the wall
Just turn around, you will see
I will catch ya, I will catch your fall
Just have a little faith in me

Have a little faith in me
Have a little faith in me
Have a little faith in me
Have a little faith in me

Well, I've been loving you for such a long, long time baby
Expecting nothing in return
Just for you to have a little faith in me
You see time, time is our friend *for you and me*
Cause for us there is no end
All you gotta do is have a little faith in me
I said I will hold you up, I will hold you up
Your strength gives me enough
So have a little faith in me
Hey baby, oh, baby
All ya gotta do is have a little faith in me
All ya gotta do is have a little faith in me
A little faith in me


Oh have a little faith in me~

B L G >.< AA

I remember what you wore when we first meet
You came into my car and I thought
Hey, you know, this could be something

Cause everything you do and words you say
You know that it all takes my breath away
And now I'm left with nothing..

So maybe it's true
That I can't live without you
Maybe two is better than one
There's not much time
To figure out the rest of my life
And you've already got me coming undone
And I'm thinking two is better than one

I remember every look upon your face
The way you roll your eyes
The way you taste
You make it hard for breathing

Cause when I close my eyes and drift away
I think of you and everything's okay
I'm finally now believing

That maybe it's true
That I can't live without you
Maybe two is better than one
There's not much time
To figure out the rest of my life
And you've already got me coming undone
And I'm thinking two is better than one
Yeah, yeah

I remember what you wore when we first meet
You came into my car and I thought, Hey,

maybe it's true
That I can't live without you
Maybe two is better than one
There's not much time
To figure out the rest of my life
And you've already got me coming undone

And I'm thinking
I can't live without you
Cause, baby, two is better than one
There's not much time
To figure out the rest of my life
But I'll figure it out
When all is said and done

Two is better than one
Two is better than one

[Slight edit on the lyric]

If

If at the beginning i could remember this...



But all i could do is



x3

我爱你

=')

Do you?

Guess ur there.. =]

Do you rmb the first time we meet? We meet up there to celebrate ur good result =]
But do you know that the real reason was actually i wanted to see you.
I was quite interested to meet you real life. I some how fell in love with the way you are.. I can't explain what but it was something..=]

Do you rmb the 2nd time we went there we ......?
I wasn't sure how you felt towards me. But that sealed my uncertainty.

Do you rmb the police incident we were crazy back then..
I was so mad about them for some reason i din want to leave >.< Even though it was not pleasant for you..

Do you rmb the time when you ask about my ex-es.. I think quite awhile before wanting to tell you, because i knew you would be jealous if you found out who they were. And i hoped you would understand that me and my ex-es were just friends and i will only love you. But it turned out the otherwise.. you got furious and sad and din want to talk to me.

Do you rmb the time when we had a slight fight over it.. I wanted to patch things up but you were still mad.. And ignored me.. But i din't mind cause it was my fault.

Do you rmb that day we were out wanting to have dinner but in the end we din eat anything... A msg came, from my ex-ed and you were jealous..
I din't know what to do.. what to say..
Explain to you but you only had negative thoughts about it.
Pissed me of abit.. Wanted to chill down and talk for a moment at the lake..But you din't want to (Dun worry i knew)because you are almost the same as me..

Do you rmb that you told me you hate and ignores anything that you dun like to ans.. I always kept that in mind so that i wont be ignored again..
But it lead to smth else.

Do you rmb that night after ... You ask-ed me out...
Your friend ask is this your~.. I really wanted to say yes
But we aren't anymore..
And after, in the car when i tried to talk, i noticed that you din't want to...

Do you rmb that day you suddenly msg-ed saying you were serious..
I really wanted to say "So was I" But i din't. why? Because I know it's pointless when you still hold the jealousy in your heart..
I really wanted to clear that.. But it seems anything that i say you will not take into consideration anymore..=]

Well now I understand that your fed up..(maybe after reading this) But dun worry.. I just want to write it out.. =] (It may not mean much.. But it really meant alot to me..)

I would understand babe.. =]

I wish you would step back from that ledge my friend
You could captize the boat of lies that you've been living in
And if you do not want to see me again I would understand

I would understand
The angry boy a bit too insane
Icing over a secret pain

You know you don't belong
You're the first to fight
You're way too loud
You're the flash of light on a burial shroud

I know something's wrong
Well everyone I know has got a reason
To say put the past away

I wish you would step back from that ledge my friend
You could cut ties with all the lies that you've been living in
And if you do not want to see me again I would understand

I would understand
Well he's on the table and he's gone to code
And I do not think anyone knows

What they're doing here
And your friends have left you
You've been dismissed

I never thought it would come to this
And I, I want you to know
Everyone's got to face down the demons

Maybe today
You could put the past away

I wish you would step back from that ledge my friend
You could cut ties with all the lies that you've been living in
And if you do not want to see me again I would understand

I would understand
I would understand
I would understand
I would understand
I would understand

Understand
Yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah

Can you put the past away

I wish you would step back from that ledge my friend
I would understand
I wish you would step back from that ledge my friend
I would understand
I wish you would step back from that ledge my friend

And I would understand

I wish you would step back from that ledge my friend
I would understand
I wish you would step back from that ledge my friend
I would understand

=X

What they say bout me is so true..
I never knew i was such a disgrace..
I never really gave a thought bout all their feelings..
Even if i did.. It was just plain thought..

Every time they tried to say it to me.. i kept refuse to listen..
Because i know what it is.. I'm just no use..
For the past few years after so many relationships..
There is only twice which made me crashed.. =]
Tears cant stop falling... Laughter cant seem to heal..
Joy is always pointless... But only sorrow follows on..

Dun feel bad bout yourself.. maybe you did choose the right path..
I was just being selfish..
Even though how hard it seems to me..
I will still stand up (eventually) XD

A friend of mine told me.. ' your the "happiest" couple i've ever seen after a breakup'
Hahaha.. Maybe we were.. Who knows?
Thx for 62 days of your life.. It did meant a lot to me..

Good luck and God speed.. May you feel much happier after this.. =]

Where'd you go..

Where'd you go?
I miss you so
Seems like its been forever that you've been gone

She said somedays I feel like shit
Somedays I wanna quit and just be normal for a bit
I don't understand why you have to always be gone
I get along but your trips always feel so long
And I find myself trying to stay by the phone
'Cause your voice always helps me to not feel so alone
But I feel like an idiot, working my day around a call
And when I pick up I don't have much to say, so

I want you to know its a little fucked up that
I'm stuck here waiting, at times debatin
Telling you that I've had it with you and your career
Me and the rest of the family here singing

Where'd you go?
I miss you so
Seems like its been forever that you've been gone
Where'd you go?
I miss you so
Seems like its been forever that you've been gone
Please Come back home

You know, the place where you used to live
Used to barbeque with burgers and ribs
Used to have a little party every halloween
with candy by the pile but now
you only stop by every once in a while
Shit
I find myself just filling my time
With anything to keep the thought of you from my mind
I'm doing fine and I'm plannin' to keep it that way
You can call me if you find that you have something to say
And I'll tell you

I want you to know its a little fucked up that
I'm stuck here waiting, at times debating
Telling you that I've had it with you and your career
Me and the rest of the family here singing

Where'd you go?
I miss you so
Seems like its been forever that you've been gone
Where'd you go?
I miss you so
Seems like its been forever that you've been gone
Please Come back home

I want you to know its a little fucked up that
I'm stuck here waiting, no longer debatin'
Tired of sittin and hatin' and making these excuses
For why you're not around, and feeling sorta useless
It seems that one thing has been true all along
You don't really know what you've got till its gone
I guess I've had it with you and your career
When you come back I won't be here and you can sing it

Where'd you go?
I miss you so
Seems like its been forever that you've been gone
Where'd you go?
I miss you so
Seems like its been forever that you've been gone
Please Come back home

Please come back home
Please come back home
Please come back home
Please come back home



...

What Am I?

Going crazee..
Going insane..
Going mentally disorder..
What am i doing?

All is my fault..

I feel jealous for u ... U are able to express them so easily..
where i am not good at..
Felt far.. Felt cold.. Felt ignored..
FOR WHAT?

Apologize? Can cure? Can work? BULLSHIT!
Make things worst is what i do best..
I'm wrong..
I'm bad..
I'm ur annoyance..

Talk to me? NO!
Talk to ur buddies..
Talk to ur hiadi's..
They cheer for u..
They back u up..
They think for u?

Happy for you for feeling happy with ur Hiadi's
Jealous for not being able to be like that..
Got use? NO!
No use.. Wont understand my feel..

You understand? Good!
Tell me what i am thinking?
Tell me why am i thinking ..
Tell me how do i think..

Specialty? Yeah
Keep everything just to myself..
Unable to trust anyone fully..
Wrong? Maybe~

Phone? always quiet...
MSN? bai leng~
FB? Dotz*

Dotz's*? Always..
Sick? Yeah!
Why? Annoyed..
Oh~ ...

What the fark am i typing? I dun understand it.. Do you?

Results are out!!!

Congratulations to those who got great results... & sry to hear from those who did not that well.. we have better luck to come..

Haiz.. it's not my day... stress out with too much complicated things.. should i retake or just continue on with my grades? should i stop and just go into business?
should i just die... =.=

Everything dun seem to work out for me.. im just sick and tired of it.. COME ON GIVE ME ALL YOU'VE GOT.. I'm still ready for more depressing situations.. thats what my life has become.. one big depressing life...

Actually i got no mood to write de after saying it.. k la.. end here


(sry readers.. no mood to express them fully today..)

Chae Yeon - Shake

I wonder if they will take the background beat into clubbing? >.<

O.o

Yeah .. Unë nuk do të kuptoni .. abit
Unë nuk do të kuptojë pse dhe sa shumë dhimbje një person do të ndjehen pa .. ppl dashur
Unë nuk do të kuptojë se si është e tmerrshme të mos jetë në gjendje të ndiheni të sigurt ..
Yeah that's mua .. apo është?
Pse jam i lumtur gjithmonë në mënyrë të shkoni me fat?
Gjithkush ka ngritje e tyre dhe ups .. por nuk do të thotë ne nuk do të kuptojnë njëri-tjetrin ..
Unë jam vetëm i parëndësishëm që jeton një jetë të lumtur?
E pra unë nuk do të shkojë më tej çdo ..
Unë nuk bëj asgjë më të mirë stupid përsëri ..
Më dhemb mua duke parë e saj më të pikëlluar si ai është tashmë ..
Smile Smile ~

Michael!!

Back to college.. T.T

Well is back to college again!! What have i been doing? Holiday ended so quickly.. Why?!?!
So fast? So short? Which? Well whatever it is.. I'm still back to college.. Seeing college mates back on the first day it's happy yet sad..
Well.. Happy Cause im able to see them again.. Sad cause im again gonna be stressing out my subjects..
Now is the time.. Shall i drop any subjects? Im afraid of the results on 25th.. What if i got all U's.. will i be able to show my face again.. =.=
What to do? what to do? what to do?

Feeling almost every emotions u can think of... =.=
Can't really explain why.. but i just do..
Thinking bout my future... Thinking bout my hope.. my dreams.. my family..
What will i become? What will i turn out to be? will i grow up to be a fine successful man? or A failure in society?

I do hope everything will turn out fine..
But dun worry.. every time i see my darling.. I will feel much better~ =D
Hope she has a speedy recovery.. and feel much better after the treatment.. =]
Good Luck and Know that i'm Here..