What Am I?

Going crazee..
Going insane..
Going mentally disorder..
What am i doing?

All is my fault..

I feel jealous for u ... U are able to express them so easily..
where i am not good at..
Felt far.. Felt cold.. Felt ignored..
FOR WHAT?

Apologize? Can cure? Can work? BULLSHIT!
Make things worst is what i do best..
I'm wrong..
I'm bad..
I'm ur annoyance..

Talk to me? NO!
Talk to ur buddies..
Talk to ur hiadi's..
They cheer for u..
They back u up..
They think for u?

Happy for you for feeling happy with ur Hiadi's
Jealous for not being able to be like that..
Got use? NO!
No use.. Wont understand my feel..

You understand? Good!
Tell me what i am thinking?
Tell me why am i thinking ..
Tell me how do i think..

Specialty? Yeah
Keep everything just to myself..
Unable to trust anyone fully..
Wrong? Maybe~

Phone? always quiet...
MSN? bai leng~
FB? Dotz*

Dotz's*? Always..
Sick? Yeah!
Why? Annoyed..
Oh~ ...

What the fark am i typing? I dun understand it.. Do you?