Back into?

What if everything around you starts falling apart, and the only thing you knew is your only self that was never real and never useful?

What if one day you woke up and say "when did i became so useless to the fact that i wasted years in life doing nothing"?

Have you ever thought of it? That one day it might just bite you back in da ass saying "you worthless feller, no qualification in life is useless in life"

Well this pass days have been stressful and very very brain damaging to me. Having all this little thought in mind can just kill you. Eye on the prize, but what is my prize? Money? Job? Better Future? What am i afraid of?

Every morning waking up to the same old tempo stirring up the life back to myself and thinking should i go back?

Yes, i am afraid of unable to coupe with it... Yes, i'm afraid that it will be a waste of money... Yes, i'm afraid i am really useless... But on the other hand if i did not go back for it, i will have no qualifications.

What to enroll into? What is the best path?

No one really knows what will come out eventually, it is the first step we make that determines what path we will take on but it will never tell us what we will become of it.

But if we never take the first step in believing, then it has already failed its journey.

If seeing is believing, then you will have to wait for an eternity to see what will come out of it without believing it at first. But still all this petty thinking and encouraging talk still doesn't solve the big problem.. Will i succeed? Will i not waste it all away as i have with my years? My life has never been perfect but i always give it a try to change it.

Thx for reading this worthless blog. And thx for all your encouraging words of wisdom..

Singapore!!

Hello people!! Long time no see!

Well you can guess it i was down south the pass wednesday till last monday.

Just to look see and browse around sg while looking at my dear~ =D

Spend those 6 days wonderfully roaming around the cities, checking out malls, living amongst singaporens eating and drinking.

Well what i've learn from them is that they are 80% always with an ear piece stuck to their ear and wired to 60% iphone. What a life =.= mrt here mrt there walk here walk there, but one thing for sure, the weather there is much better than Msia. Even if there is heat, it was still windy and to top it all off, air-conds everywhere. Need to chill? the mrt could do the job well.

Spend most of my time outside roaming around, sometimes with my dear and her sister.

Meet their lovely parents. 1 word sum it all , Funny. hahaha Seriously, they are 1 heck of a funny pair, they are always joking around and just plain having fun. Lovely family they have. Lucky for me, that saturday and sunday they brought me out and just plain wonder around.

Went on a date with my dear.. (Can say it was our first date to be exact ) What a failure i am >.< Din't even know what to do until her sis suggested movie. So we hurried down to bugis and caught the " Just go with it". Well lets just say it was splendid.. =P

Oh not to forget i even got to drink that so call drink named KOI. Not bad for a fished named drink, hahaha... but seriously, they should open some shops at KL, i wouldn't mind going to get a cup of it again. Ppl there would line up and i mean LINE UP to get a cup no matter how LONG the line is. It may go for hours, but luckily that day wasn't that long the line (for me).

Well i guess thats all for now =] See ya next time, or till i have something to write again.. HAHAHA

Having you was the best thing that ever happened to me....

Dedicated to Ng Mei Chyi

Hahaha!! After many long lazy ness of not updating my blog, i have been requested to dedicate a post for my dearest kiut friend.. hahaha, Well here it is!

She is 18 going to be 17 going to be 18 soon, with a lil average short height! haha... Acts funny at times with her crazzzy krazzy gesture. Can be cute sometime and funny at others but still always in an eternal emo state. Likes sticky crazy for koi fall madly in love with her cloths (9 or 10 cloths crumple together) her mao mao she calls it. Hahaha.

Lives in SG but she doesn't like singaporeans... hahaha how ironic is that! Goes to westwood with her woody friends, and enjoys her daily stroll to JP for breakfast lunch and dinner! xD

Together with her is her elder sister, Also as same with her crazzy crazzy all year long.. always have stories to tell and when she does it.. she's always hyper~ xD

Well.......... i guess i wont write much about it cause this is too public and if i go in more details you guy might wanna rob them! soo.... hahaha Farewell~

Hello~

Hello to the people who does follow this lame blog~
It's time for me to update on smthWeee.... You guys know what this is? IT'S STICKY!!! Yummy~ Sweet devilish candy!

Yes, this is a candy... Wakakak, Thx to Wenqi and Meichyi that always grabs some for me from SG. (And they are still in ma fridge)

Really not in any mood to blog for the past few days? weeks? month? I'm not quite sure why , Maybe i'm just too tired to even write it down Even though much has happen.

Think about this, What really is the truth in life? What does anything got to do with everything?

If you can't even grab the meaning of it all, wouldn't you be just like everyone else being the same damn thing, doing the same damn shit?

What about lurve? Why do we hunger and desire for them? Is it really that much to be in a relationship? For the past few days, My FB has been flooded with Relationship statuses Of either breaking up's or new relationships formed. Do we really lust for all this?

Trust, is what that matters in the end. Do we really trust the person next to us? around us? Far from us? Do we really put out faith in them wholeheartedly? and not being a Hypocrite in what we say and what we do. Action certainly speaks louder than words, But not always action can go trough to a person without words. Sometimes a simple "I LOVE YOU' can really mean a lot.

DO NOT!! I REPEAT DO NOT!! Exploit the use of the word "I LOVE YOU" , It will only ruin your relationship. It will have no meaning when you truly meant it. Because it became a norm to you and your partner. Make that word special and meaningful again, Keep that to your dearest and you will succeed in your relationship.

Well i guess thats for now. See ya in the near Future~ xP

Breathless

Had this awesome feeling last night when i was asleep. I practically wasn't breathing!
Every time i breath it's like my body and soul got separated and traveled back and forth in time. Every time i wake up i'm not where i was.

It may sound like a dream to you but it was as real as life to me. It was difficult to breath and at the same time exciting. the pressure and impulse of out of body experience is to an extend i am not me when i wake up.. I see myself somewhere but i am not in my body..
Hahaha..

Well.. nothing much to talk about it.. because the rest was a blurr.. =]
All i rmb was as i returned to my seat, my alarm woke me up.. (there was more to come but that stupid alarm was too ALARMING)

Memories~

Walking down the road.... i ponder... how i used to be so anxious on seeing toys... how fun it was.

Went to Tropicana City mall and practically walked the whole mall. Went into toy R us and saw this beautiful bulldozer.. hahaha
It reminded me of how i had one just like that when i was little... I always like that bulldozer, how strong and mighty it was. Haha... I know.. Hey that was back then when i was just a boy.

Walk pass alot of shops, games , arcade, cinema, cloths, bookstores and nothing seem to interest me anymore... I wonder why? Maybe i have went pass that stage? But i do still adore the looks of the children when they eagerly wanting their parents to buy that specific toy.. Too bad the parents can only buy 1.

It was just a walking down memory lane felt like.. =]

Independence Day!!

It is the time of the year again.. Where we remember our founding fathers of the Independence Day for Malaysia!

Where the British hand over their ruling rights to the Malaysian Government.

Was it the right decision to do so? If we could turn back time , would we choose to be ruled by the British?

However, If it wasn't for the group that went to London for this, we wouldn't have all this fun , crucial and entertaining racism , religion and political issues to entertain the people of Malaysia!

What did we do for our country except see it burn to the ground?

Do the citizens of Malaysia feel patriotic to their country?

Do we really belong here?

Been hearing a lot of people migrating out to other country. Fleeing from their birthrights and not standing their ground giving the minorities to rule over the majorities. God did put us here for a reason, why are we running away?

Stand your ground and defend your rights!

A change can only start from you! Do not depend on others to change what should be done, but you yourself should be the one to start the change.

2020 our long forgotten "wawasan" was suppose to create a country of fairness and equality!

But we still fail to do so.. we have limited time left and yet more crucial issues arise.

If there was a way to do so, i would hope to kill off the early generations that had such worthless mindset, and let the new generations that wants freedom, fairness and equality to be the ruler of this country.

Hear the cries of the people, Hear the words of the people, For without the people the country is pointless!